Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35
May 12, 2026 17:55
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So it's the resistance.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Resistance is the part of you that
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doesn't want to know what's going on.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Right.
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Even though you're open to everything.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Yes.
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You're open to everything that you want to know.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Yeah.
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But the bits that you don't want to know,
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you're resistant to,
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and it's probably unconscious.
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And that's where my work is.
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It's not on what we know.
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It's the unknown.
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It's the unknown because you can't do it yourself.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
So I need to tell you something
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that's constructive.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
No,
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you can't do it because you don't want to do it.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
It's what comes up when you're talking.
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I can see.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Right.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
And that's what I think that all this talk about friends.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
There is a resistance.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
That's how you do it.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
So we don't talk about maybe the deeper stuff
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because you don't even know what it is.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
No.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
But that's what I'm trying to find out.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
And people don't want to know.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Everybody's like that.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
It's not just you.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Right.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Okay.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
I do want to know.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
I want to know why.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Yeah, you want to know,
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but you're unconscious.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
But there's a part of you...
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
That doesn't want to know.
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That doesn't want to know.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
So I need to...
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
You want to know how you're going to know.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
But that's where my work comes.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Right.
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And so to help you,
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what do you want me...
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
No, it won't...
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It won't come like that.
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It comes in a way in which you don't know what you're doing,
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
maybe,
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because otherwise you're resisting it.
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You know,
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that's my work,
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is to understand what's going on that's affecting you
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that you don't know and that you project onto other people.
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I have found it hard to get to that with you.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
I do to lots of people.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
So it's difficult in general for a lot of people?
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Yes,
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it is.
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I think you've been stronger in one way,
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though, because you've brought practically every time the same
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kind of thing,
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which I've said to you many times.
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People don't do it quite like that.
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So that's why I see it.
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It doesn't mean,
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you know,
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I think what you told me today was...
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Probably a good thing you said about your illness.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Yeah.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
That you're sick and you're always going to the doctor.
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You always got something.
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And then,
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because what happened is,
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something you didn't know,
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suddenly you coughed.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Yeah.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
And you showed me how,
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when we started to talk about something,
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how you changed it.
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And then how you...
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
That's how you displayed your resistance or how
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things go into the physical for you.
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So you didn't try and show me,
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it just came.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
And I can see that.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
It's interesting because my assumption was,
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we're sitting outside,
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is there something going on in the air that's making me do that?
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
But what you're also saying is that it could
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be of...
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
something again on another level that made it come out.
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Because it's so illogical how I start choking.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Yeah.
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Now,
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I remember having somebody who said he
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thought he was having a heart attack or something like
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that.
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And every time we mentioned something that was very personal.
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His arm hurt him or something like that.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
It happened all the time.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Right.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Now, he didn't manufacture it,
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but it showed me.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Yeah.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
It showed me what it
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was.
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It didn't show me the exact thing,
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but it showed me that there was something.
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Whenever we talked about this personal thing,
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that's happened.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Okay.
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I'm not about to jump off a building or to do that.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
So don't get excited in that way.
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But I do get to the point of saying,
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you know what?
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I don't want to grow old.
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I don't.
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I'm sick and tired.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
OK,
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
that's interesting.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Why don't you want to grow old?
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
I think maybe because I'm bored of my life.
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I'm sick and tired of repetitiveness,
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of things going on,
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physical health,
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teeth,
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all the things I've told you about.
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I'm bored with it.
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I feel like I've done it all.
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I've seen it all.
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What more have I gotten up for
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in life?
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I'm done.
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It's just like...
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And yet you don't want to grow old,
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
so you don't want to die then.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
No, no, no,
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no. I don't want to grow...
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Continue like this.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Continue, yeah.
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I don't want to live to being old.
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I'm bored of it.
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I feel I've had my experiences in life,
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where I've travelled in South America.
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I've had this job,
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I've done this,
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I've done that.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
What have you done that you'd like?
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
There's one thing that I'd like to do is probably
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be in a warmer climate away from the whole busy,
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mad life.
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So why don't you do it?
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Maybe you're giving,
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maybe,
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all this about having to do...
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Sort this out and sort that out and sort this out and sort that out.
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It's your way of keeping you from doing that.
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I'm nervous for one,
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let's say in a year or whenever I decide,
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right, I'm going to go off.
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I'm not just talking about for a holiday.
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I'm not talking about a week or two.
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I want to be in a quiet way of life.
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I've had enough of city life.
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I want to be in a warmer climate.
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This is where my ideas of Costa Rica or Panama.
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I'm trying to think even logically all my belongings,
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how I put everything together and I find all of that overwhelming.
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all the chores to get there.
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Because I spend...
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It's like packing.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Yeah, but all I do is I'm problem solving most
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of the week,
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ringing up this company,
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sorting this out,
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working out how I can earn some extra money to do some market.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Okay, but that's different.
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The fact of that's different,
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it's not like you're sorting out your old problems.
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If you need to earn the money,
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you have to do that in order to leave.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
That's a small slice of it,
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but I am very nervous about...
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going into,
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let's say,
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a place where I won't know anyone,
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starting from scratch,
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from the unknown.
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I think,
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though, that might be the only solution in my life to have
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a new...
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Beginning.
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Yeah,
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chapter,
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fresh book,
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away from this repetitive nonsense.
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Is that real?
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Does that help?
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Well,
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yes.
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But
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you need to earn the money.
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Or don't you?
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Could you go now?
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Go there and earn some money.
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But there's lots to think about.
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If I was to leave somewhere,
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citizenship,
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how long I could stay there,
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all these things.
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And I find so many things overwhelming and there's only so
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much I can do in one day.
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And I'm not alone there because I know everyone in
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life is on this hard treadmill.
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But I just feel sometimes it's...
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I can't deal with all the things.
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And the emotion.
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It's just like I sort out one problem and
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then ten things all get thrown.
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And the best way that I illustrate
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it, I may have said it to you before,
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I'm at an airport with the electronic belt
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that pulls you along.
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I'm trying to run in the opposite direction.
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And as I say as another example,
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my life feels like a jigsaw puzzle where
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all the pieces have come out of place and I'm trying to find which
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goes where.
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And
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you know one other thing,
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I don't know if this is useful or relevant.
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I'm very aware of the problems with the anti
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-jew and all of that.
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I switch off.
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I don't watch the television.
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I don't get involved.
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I can't take that on.
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I'm very aware it's going on.
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Years ago,
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I did so much advocacy against anti -Semitism,
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anti -Israel.
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I did all of that.
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And I think,
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what did it achieve in my life?
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What changed?
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And I think I wasted a lot of time and energy
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in that.
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I can't go back because it's happened in the past.
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I don't know why I did it,
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but I was very passionate about it.
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Does that help in any...
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Well, that tells me something.
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You know,
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it tells me something.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
But it's interesting.
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And that you don't want to go back into it.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Yeah, it's very interesting now.
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In life, all the problems going on,
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I notice the fear in so many people,
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not just the due hatred and all of those problems,
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but in life,
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the fear from the media,
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from this,
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from that.
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And I understand why people feel that.
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And I think that's not my movie anymore.
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I can't get involved.
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I've got my own movie to be dealing with.
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I'm
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not saying you should.
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Yeah, yeah.
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Do you think you should?
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
No.
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So that's good.
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So there's one problem that you're not taking on.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
No, because I couldn't be able to deal with it.
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A guy triggered me off a few
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weeks ago, a French guy.
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He said,
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oh yes, I'm very aware of anti -Semitism,
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but I don't know anyone,
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no Israelis,
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because I see Israelis.
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Like the Nazis.
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And I'm thinking,
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I'm not even going to go down there.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
But that felt very,
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you know,
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how can you generalize,
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like, talking about every Israeli.
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Yeah, the government is another story,
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like everywhere in the world.
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But that really affected me for three,
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four days.
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So the interesting thing is,
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this guy is not nothing to live in my life.
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But that comment about...
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You know, you know why?
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
He said,
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tell me more.
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Send me some videos so I can understand.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
So I've sent him six,
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seven videos.
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I did it because he asked me,
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which is not the case,
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but what I'm aware of,
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how it affects me emotionally,
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how it got me so worked up.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
And I thought,
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what were you worked up about?
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Because it felt like I was going in my part of
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having to justify and show this and prove this.
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And it got,
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you know.
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I came to that only because we're talking about emotions.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Yes.
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And we're talking
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about the past and how the past affects the present.
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But somehow that experience,
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somehow,
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I don't know,
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you're still in it by being so emotional about
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it.
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Yeah.
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You know,
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I'm not saying you can go back to it.
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Emotions.
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how that small,
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that thing got me so triggered for three,
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four days.
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Why,
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though?
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Good question.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Why did it?
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Was it looking at the way you were before?
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Or was it,
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or was it making yourself
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feel upset because you're not getting involved in
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it? I'm,
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I think it may,
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and I used the word may,
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felt like
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I was going into my past life of what I was involved
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with, all the emotions and fighting.
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That stronger resonates with
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me.
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When I look at everyone going on to demonstrations
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and doing that,
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I'm not feeling,
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oh, I need to be there.
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So I don't feel strongly.
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But are you afraid,
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though, that if you go into a new city that you don't know anybody,
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that the Jewish thing,
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you
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may not feel safe?
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You know what?
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Whereas because you know people here...
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
There is a bit of that.
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But I've also got the level of...
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I don't necessarily need to be surrounded by loads of Jewish people.
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But...
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I also sometimes think and I'm not saying oh if I wasn't
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Jewish but I say being Jewish seems to be a heavy
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price because it's just like why can't I be like Joe
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Bloggs where everyone's so obsessed and
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you know it's just like there's enough problems and
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troubles having to navigate and I just feel this whole kind of it's
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almost like the moment anyone
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Here's the word that your Jewish is straight away.
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It's like your one is being judged from the outside.
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Because I
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don't even have to be having a conversation by saying I'm
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Jewish. I could be going to meeting strangers and their conversation
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may start talking about Jews and the ancestors of Israel straight
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away.
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You're affected.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
I'm affected.
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Without them even knowing that I'm Jewish.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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And that's the part where I think...
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Well, no, but that's understandable.
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Yeah.
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It doesn't...
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The fact is,
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it's your feeling.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Yeah.
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And it's about you.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Yeah.
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But it
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isn't about people getting at you that affects
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you.
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It's that you can easily be gotten to,
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easily be threatened,
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easily be...
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But in that example where someone doesn't
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even know me and people could...
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
But you're judging yourself,
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aren't you?
15:54
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
But where does the judgment come from?
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Where is it?
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
That's what I mean.
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Who in the past has judged you?
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My mother.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Very clearly.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Okay.
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And in a way,
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a lot of the talk we've had about
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people...
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Friends, it's about them judging you.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Yes. So my mother,
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yes.
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So there's where your mother is.
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And I think,
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this is what I've seen a lot of actually,
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a lot of people have got,
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no matter if they love a person,
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
there's a lot of anger towards them,
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
especially when they've died.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
And they cannot bear to feel it.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
They can't bear to feel it.
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Speaker 3 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
And
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
they don't know they have it.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
And that's
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
what they're resisting.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
And sometimes the fear
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
is that if you...
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
I just had this recently.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
If you are angry,
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
there's a fear that you might kill them.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
That your anger is so strong.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
that it can harm them.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
It can harm them.
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Speaker 3 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
I
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
know somebody felt that if they were angry
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
with me because I was in the hospital or I had my thing,
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
they didn't feel angry.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
But they know they were.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
And that if they allowed themselves to show it to me,
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
I might die.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
For some reason I might die in
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
the hospital.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
And they didn't want that.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Can you understand that somebody
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
feeling that?
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Yes.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
So I'm saying
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
that I wonder if there's also that in you.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
That if you felt angry with your mother,
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
really angry with her,
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
people can love somebody
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
and hate them at the same time.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
And it's not forever.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Oh, I'd get angry with my mother at times.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
When she would,
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
for example,
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
I may have said it in the past.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
But you're crying all the time about your mother.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
It's not about your anger,
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
is it?
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
You're crying,
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
you miss her,
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
you think about her.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
maybe you should have done differently when you were younger you
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
maybe you should have given her a ride up that hill or something like you said
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
yeah these are the yeah and I gave her rides
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
a lot of the time there were on occasions
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
It wasn't easy because I was doing something else.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
And my mother would go hysterical and slam
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
the front door and start...
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
That you had to do it.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Well, yeah,
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
and I'd go chasing after her because of her health
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condition with her emphysema.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
But she never...
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
Let's say I was on an important phone call and then she
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
wants to go out.
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
You had to do it.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
It's just like,
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
stop everything for me.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
I'm sorry,
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
I'm on the phone.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
and and and give me five minutes so this would
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
it wouldn't happen regularly but every so often so she
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
would go and i need to go now no
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
i need to go now so she'd go out in a half path and then
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
after i'd finished the call then i'd pick her up on route and take her
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
the rest of the way that was quite common yeah
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
That's giving in, isn't it? It's giving in to her.
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
temper tantrum yeah she's having a temper tantrum yeah and
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
you found it difficult to stand up
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Speaker 1 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
to that because you felt for your mother you felt you
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
didn't want her to i didn't want her to be i didn't want to because she'd get out of breath of
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
going up to a heel so i was doing it from a practical level
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
because i don't didn't want her to be hard but i was frustrated with
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Speaker 2 (Anna Mae 2026_05_12_12_52_35)
her because
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