I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk]
Apr 10, 2026 02:24
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Once the recording of this video is complete, I will be going, no, I will be scheduling it as a upload, and I will then be going upstairs, taking a kitchen knife, and slashing my wrists.
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I have a lot I want to talk about first. I want to say sorry to my mom, because in order to get her to leave the room, I had to lie and say that I'm...
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Yesterday, my friend Ren, no longer Null, a previous employee of mine who had been let go of their own accordance sometime in May 2025, had published a document claiming that I had raped and sexually assaulted them and coerced them into sex, whatever, all of the above, at RDC.
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2025. Now, this is not the reason that, talking about this, I, when I saw it, I got to work, I started writing a document, it was basically to point out the inconsistencies that Ren had left out.
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
I disabled Twitter and Reddit and YouTube, so I wouldn't see what anything anyone was saying, because I know that it would just sound my mood.
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I then, as I was writing it, and pointing out the inconsistencies, I noticed that all my friends, and my co-workers, and the people who I had been with for years, were leaving me, unfriending me, sending me cruel messages, because I hadn't put out a response fast enough.
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My friend of my friend of my friends for eight years reached out to me, and I talked to him earlier in the day, I discussed how I had gotten a YouTube play button, and they told me that I was disgusting, and that I should kill myself, and then they blocked me shortly after.
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That is also not why I'm making this, but as I was writing the document, you know, more and more people were leaving, and it was fine, and I was just writing away, I was talking with my mom, and she was on her phone.
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And that's when she told me that, and I had not been on Twitter at the time, because I had closed everything off.
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They told me that Gianni had retired, and so had every other voice actor, and other prominent figures.
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And that's when I realized that writing a response at all was pointless, and I stopped.
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I went to bed, I couldn't fall asleep, so I laid there for 12 hours.
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I was talking with Soya, one of my employees, who had not left me at the time.
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They were helping me formulate the document, but as I became aware of the situation, I decided, no, this is not worth it.
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Speaker 3 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
It's not, there's no point where the response is set.
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
document response nobody's going to read it and it's just over anyway so i don't want to bother
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anymore with that he wrote three different four to my apparently i don't know different things
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one was 50 pages long it was going over a bunch of descriptions discrepancies and call outs in
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my behavior by ren claiming that i had manipulated them and hurt and assaulted them which was not true
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i'm going to there are three main discrepancies that i want to go over when ren was claiming that
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i was assaulting them um they did not include the fact that as we were cuddling after they had
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stopped crying and were calm they asked me to get comfortable and as i was after i had gotten
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comfortable they asked if they could kiss me and i kissed them and then that's when it started was
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the sex whatever and they did not include that in their um in their document which i was right so i
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was writing that as a discrepancy but there was just so many pages to go over that it's just it
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became pointless there were two other discrepancies as well ren had claimed that i had refused to buy
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a lube after they had looked up that you know you needed lube for sex which is it's all well and good
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they are claiming that they discovered this themselves this was not true ren was at a cafe
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with one of their friends and they had talked about our encounter after i had asked for them not to
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and that's that person then recommended ren to get lube after which they messaged me but at the time
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i had already left the store and as my day was scheduled it was packed i was unable to go and buy more
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lube for them the third discrepancy is on the oh and i know this because in bed that night ren told me
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that they had told their friends and told and you know that friend had told them to buy lube so that's
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why they had asked for lube and so the third discrepancy was when ren was claiming that i had
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said something to make them kill themselves they had not included what i had said because what i had
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said was during the rdc meeting it had came to my attention from a mutual friend that ren had broken
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my personal boundaries once again by telling six other individuals about our encounter after i had
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asked them not to they this made me incredibly angry at is it was the one request i had asked them
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not to talk about as i was embarrassed that our first time had not been you know good but they did so
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anyway and this made me very very mad i stopped i told them to stop talking to me they began calling me
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i ignored their calls i ignored their messages and that's why they went out and tried to kill
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themselves basically i'm going to be talking to ren directly here i don't know if she is going to be
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listening they sorry they were they told me that they were she at rdc so she i'm going to be talking
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to her directly ren i'm sorry that i was not intimate enough with you and i did not talk to you and i'm
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sorry that all of my flirting and bad flirting i'm sorry that you interpreted it as malicious intent
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you um okay there was this one point you made where you said that i had washed my hair when i was coming
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over but i just i just washed it because america's really warm so i don't i don't know um sorry
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okay
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you
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you
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
you were um everything in your document you had stated that i had done so with malicious intent
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in order to just get with you i want to tell you that it's not true i just wanted to hang out with
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you because i had a crush on you and i thought that you were a nice person to be around and that
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yet it turned into flirting and i am not good at flirting and i'm sorry that my poor flirting came
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off as me trying to manipulate you in any way shape or form i did not i did not mean for it to
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come off like that i am sorry that you like in the document you state that i had abused you sexually
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abused you after the first night but when when we were together and you asked to kiss me and i kissed
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you and we made out and and i'm sorry that i did not interpret that as having to stop entirely
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it came off as very much as you wanted to you know like you wanted to do more you had told me in the
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past that you had a crush on me in may i was adding it to the document as a contradiction
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and because you stated somewhere that you'd never had feelings for me and
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i'm sorry that you were lying that i didn't pick up on the lie back then and i'm sorry for not
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showcasing this here but i don't i don't want to try anymore i'm i'm not going to be around to care
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whether or not my name is cleared or not again i don't want to use this video as a way to clear
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my name or anything i want to apologize to ren to my friends my co-workers and my family i'm sorry
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
that throughout the days i was not messaging you a lot it was all so new to me i had never been with
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someone before and it was all going so fast and i'm sorry that it came off as me not caring or just
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not being there i had so much stuff planned with everyone my friends that i'd rearranged that there
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was meetings and dinners it was so much and i i hadn't planned for us to do anything so
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i'm sorry that i i didn't hit it into the schedule and i'm sorry for being so dry in our text all the
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suddenly having someone to talk to it was like like romantically it was so weird and i was it was
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my first time doing that and it was it was so new and i didn't know what to do and i didn't know how
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to act and i'm i'm so sorry it came off as me not caring because i i did care about you and i don't
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understand i don't understand why you'd want to frame me for something so fucking heinous i just
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i don't get it when in the hotel lobby and you were and you were crying and you wanted to hug me and
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i i'm sorry i didn't pick up that i was manipulating you i i just wanted to comfort you because you were
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i'm sorry that i wasn't very good at sex and that i hurt you it was my first time and and i didn't
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know what to do i'm sorry
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
And I wanted to be better, I wanted to try again, which is why, and I asked to try again the next night.
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And I'm sorry that I also ran off so early, because I was so embarrassed.
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I was so embarrassed that I came down and wanted to check up on me.
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I wanted me to reassure her that I would not do anything stupid, but to lie to her again off the line.
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And I ran off early, not because I was done with you, or because I didn't love you, or because I forgot what you wrote specifically,
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but it was just because it was my first time with anyone ever, and I had not succeeded in pleasing you as well.
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And it made me embarrassed that I had not been good enough.
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So I ran back home.
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As part of the embarrassment, I did the self-deprecating, well-that-just-happened-joke.
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It was not meant to be, like, downplaying what happened.
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It was just me trying to make a joke in a situation where I had fucked up by not being good enough for you.
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So, we texted a bit.
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I wanted to move on from it, because I was just so embarrassed that my first time had been with someone that I had been friends with for so long.
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Like, meeting a friend of mine that I had had a crush on for two years, and, you know, being with them, it was embarrassing.
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And I did not mean for it to come off as me not caring about you, or wanting to use you, or any of the sorts.
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Because the next day, I was embarrassed to see you, because, obviously, I tried to avoid eye contact with you at RDC, and just tried to avoid you at RDC.
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And it was not out of malicious.
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It was just because I was so embarrassed that we had been together, but I still, like, you're okay.
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That's why I wanted to try again the next night, the night, that night.
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I wanted to try again, because the first night had not gone that well.
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And I will bring up another discrepancy, which I do not understand why you left out or changed.
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During the day when I was buying condoms, I had left the store.
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You messaged me to also get lube.
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At the time, I was on my way to a meeting I had scheduled long in advance.
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And all the stores would be closed by the time that I was done with all my scheduled things.
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You stated that you had looked up the fact that there was lube, that that lube was needed in your document.
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But we know that's not true, because you were with your friend.
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And your friend, you told your friend what we had done, even though I had asked you out of embarrassment.
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Not because I wanted to try and hide anything, I was just plainly embarrassed.
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You asked them what was good for sex, and they suggested lube.
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And I know this, because that night, when we were laying together, you confessed to me that you had talked to two of your friends about our intimate encounter,
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even though I had requested...
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you not to i looked past it because just girl gossip and i don't understand why you decided to
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not include that as part of your document and why you would make that up and we then slept together
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we woke up kissed yada yada and then i had to leave early because and actually this is another
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thing i'll bring up you talked about how i did i didn't want you to meet my mom and because i was
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trying to hide you from her that is not true that is true in a sense it was i was not trying to hide you
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because of anything malicious i just did not want my mom who had a key card to my room to know that i
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was having sex with a girl because parents knowing about sex i find that embarrassing there was nothing
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more to it i apologized if it came off as me not trying to introduce you to her even though you
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had met a few days prior i don't understand why it would make up that you had not met that day i did
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i said i did not want to do it again that night because when i was with you i barely got any sleep
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which was true so i wanted to take a day off just so i could get some proper rest as the days with all
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the meetings it was making me incredibly exhausted because i had to walk around so much i had to attend
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so many different things talk to so many different people and only getting five to six hours of sleep
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was very difficult i did not mean for it to come off as me suddenly losing interest or not wanting to
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come over and cuddle and hug i just genuinely needed some rest because i was tired on the third on the day
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of the ira roblox innovation awards i did not hang out with you as much because i was hanging out with
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the core pressure team group who were all attending the awards to see if we would win a innovation award
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that's why i did not hang out with you or talk to you because i was with the team at the time i was not
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on my phone that's why i was not texting as much because i was again with the team i did not
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mean for to mean for him to come up as me ignoring you or not talking to you enough i was just really
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busy talking with my own teammates then i get a message and this is the part where you said that
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i sent you something that made you try and kill yourself in the document you did not disclose what
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that was so i will say it here i had gotten word that you had told six other people about our
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intimate encounters even after i had told you the night before that i would like for you not to do
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that this made me angry and mad and disappointed in you because you had broken my sexual boundaries
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twice now well six times actually and it just made me sad and you started freaking out talking about
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you were going to kill that the guy who had sent it even though it wasn't him and and you started
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freaking out and i i put down my phone because i just did not want to hear it i was too disappointed
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in you at the time and i'm and i'm so sorry that i didn't pick up the phone i didn't know that you
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were going to try and hurt yourself and i'm really sorry that it took until i had come back to the home
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country until until i was made aware that you had attempted to take your own life and i am very sorry
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that when i reached back to you to try and be there for you because i didn't know what else to do i did
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not do so properly because i don't know how to handle situations where people are suicidal i have i don't
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know what to do i'm so sorry i didn't know what to say it's such a it's such a difficult topic to
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tackle and i just don't know how to properly handle it and i'm sorry that i did not handle it properly
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with you and i'm
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you
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you
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
I'm sorry, and I regretted so many days that I just didn't pick up the phone and heard you out.
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I was talking with my mom one time after RDC, and I told her about you, how you had broken my boundaries,
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
and she explained to me that, oh, girls just do that when they love someone.
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
And I'm sorry that in the moment I didn't see it like that.
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
I was just so frustrated that you had talked about our intimacy, even though I was really embarrassed,
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
and I just didn't want anyone to know about it because it was embarrassing,
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
and I don't understand why you would start talking about it.
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
I reached out to you again because I still loved you, and I'm sorry that I shut down all your offers of meeting up
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
because we live in two different countries, and travel is expensive, and it's something I just don't have time to.
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
I'm a very busy individual.
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
Well, I was. I'm not going to be any longer.
26:31
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
But in a few days after I had reached out to you again, we were talking and having fun,
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
you asked about an opportunity with Roblox regarding your music, and I had to consult my team.
26:51
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
And then they told me that you had been very awful and cruel to the members of the team whilst you were attending RDC,
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
and how you harassed them in their group and followed them,
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
and you had torn up a sticker that they had given you because you asked for it.
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
And it was...
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
I don't understand why you would do that to them.
27:17
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
They didn't do anything to you.
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
But after that, I decided that, with great hesitation, that you were not someone I wanted to be around.
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
So I started cutting you off slowly.
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
And I didn't make this...
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
And of course, I didn't make this obvious because I just didn't want to be associated with you anymore
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
because of the way you had talked to my friends and handled my friends
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
and how the whole suicide attempt of yours had went down.
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
It was just such a big mess.
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
And I didn't want to cut you off abruptly because I was afraid that you'd try and harm yourself again.
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
And I'm really sorry that I didn't...
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
I just...
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
I don't know...
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
I have never been a romantic person.
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
I've never been with someone or been close with someone.
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
And then suddenly learning that the one person I was close to had been awful to all my friends.
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
It made me...
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
It was so difficult.
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
And I'm so sorry that I hurt you by cutting you off.
28:36
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
Because you had told me how every man you had been with had been awful.
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
And I'm so sorry that I ended up being one of them.
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
And I really didn't mean it.
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
It just...
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
After I had cut you off, there were so many days where I was just wishing I could reach out to you again
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
to see how you were doing.
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
And to ask how you were feeling.
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
And to ask if you were okay.
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
And I didn't.
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
Because I didn't want to.
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
Because we had left in such bad terms.
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
And I'm so sorry for...
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
For playing dumb.
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
When...
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
When our fight...
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
Little fight happened at the end.
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
I'm so sorry for playing dumb.
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
And not...
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
And not...
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
Taking you seriously.
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
Well...
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
Like...
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
I don't know how to put it.
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
And then...
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
And then later down the line, I...
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
On December 22nd, I got a direct message from one of my friends.
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
where you had confessed to them that I had raped you at RDC.
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
And this broke my heart, because I didn't know,
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
I thought I had treated you as best as you could.
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
I had asked for consent at every opportunity,
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
and I was so sad to hear that that is what you thought that I had done to you.
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
I'm sorry that when we were holding hands after you had cried in the bed,
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
I'm so sorry that when you asked to kiss me that I interpreted it as more than that.
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
I'm sorry that I interpreted you grabbing onto me as you wanting more out of it,
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
and not just, I just want to let you know that the September 3rd and 4th
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
had been the best days of my life, because it was so nice to hang out with you.
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
I remember when we were shopping for computers,
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
and you were showing me your Kingdom Hearts thing on the big screen,
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
and you were looking for a laptop, and the others were building a PC,
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
and I remember when we were getting food,
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
and it was nice, and you were so pretty,
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
and I'm so sorry that me being attracted to you
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
and my poor flirting came off as me wanting to do more, basically.
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
And there are so many nights when I go to bed that I just wish that we could go back to September 4th,
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
just take one more time and try again,
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
because of how bad I fucked up,
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
and I've been wanting to reach out to you so many times these past months because I miss you,
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
and I'm so sorry that everything I did came off as me trying to assault and coerce you into something that you did not want to do,
32:54
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
and I'm sorry that you had to lie to me in all those texts.
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
I didn't know that it was lying.
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
I'm sorry for not picking up on the hints that you did not want to go through with it,
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
but after everything that had happened, I couldn't tell.
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
I'm sorry.
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
And I'm sorry that when you were sick,
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
and you were asking me to come over,
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
that I didn't pick up on the hint that you wanted me to come over,
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
because it didn't register to me.
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
I'm sorry.
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
You had three other friends,
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
and you just said you kind of wished you didn't ask me specifically,
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
and I didn't pick up on the hint,
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
and I'm sorry.
33:51
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
And there's so much more that I want to say,
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
but I don't know how to say it to you,
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
because I don't even know if you'll be watching.
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
I wish I had the opportunity to just talk to you in person,
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
talk this out,
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
and explain why I was so distant.
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
It was just so overwhelming.
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
It was going so fast.
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
You were talking about moving in,
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
and long-distance relationships,
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
and it was just so overwhelming,
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
and I'm sorry that I disappointed you by not,
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
by shooting your ideas down,
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
but it was just so much.
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
Because I hadn't done this before,
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
and it was all happening so fast,
34:42
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
and you were talking about marriage,
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
and meetups,
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
and it was just happened the first time,
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
like the yesterday,
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
and it was so overwhelming,
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
and I'm sorry.
35:05
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
I'm going to move on to the next thing I wanted to talk about, and that is regarding my friends and my teammates.
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Speaker 4 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
When you originally posted the document, I got to work writing a counter-argument, debunking most of the things you had gotten wrong and the things you had not included, like the fact that you had asked to kiss me first.
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Speaker 4 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
But as I was doing so, every one of my teammates and my friends were leaving me, and I just want to make it clear, Ren, that it's not your fault, and I don't want you to feel bad for what I'm going to do tonight, and I understand why you were disappointed and mad at me, and I understand why you did what you did,
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Speaker 4 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
but I had so many plans and dreams that I wanted to do with my project, and now, no matter what I write, it will not be good enough, because it's already too late, because everyone has already left.
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Speaker 4 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
I saw, and like I was talking about before, when my mom, when I was writing the document, and my mom was behind me checking the internet,
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Speaker 4 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
they said that Gianni had also left as long, as well as all the other voice actors, and I just, and I don't, and I don't see a point in trying to come up with a counter-argument,
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Speaker 3 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
because no matter what, it's just over, because, wow, wow, we, we did it, we defended ourselves, I defended myself, I beat the allegations,
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Speaker 3 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
what's the point in doing that when there's nobody left to talk to, I want to, I want to, I want to, I want to apologize to every individual by name for the things that I did wrong,
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Speaker 3 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
because, and I'm sorry, and I'm sorry, and I'm, I don't know, I'm sorry to Serum, for, for making your character in the first place,
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Speaker 5 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
so now, it's just going to be a stain in your life, and I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry, Serum, I didn't want this to happen to you,
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Speaker 5 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
you told me so many times how much this character mattered to you, and I'm so sorry that I had to ruin it, I'm so sorry,
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Speaker 7 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
I want to say sorry to Boss, who was the first person I hired for the game,
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Speaker 6 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
I'm sorry that you wasted all these years for nothing, and that it all comes crashing down,
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Speaker 8 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
and a wet fucking fart, and I'm so sorry, and I don't, and I don't know what to say, I don't, I don't know,
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
we didn't know each other very well, but you were such a good, you were such a good, like, programmer,
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Speaker 6 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
you were so talented, I'm so sorry that you wasted your talent on this, I want to say sorry to Ulti,
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
for making him waste time animating Sebastian, as well as many other characters,
39:50
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
I want to say sorry to Rad, for the same thing, I'm sorry for making you animate,
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
so.
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
much even though it didn't matter in the end i want to say sorry to will and hal and sobi
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Speaker 6 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
for not appreciating your right and cat too for not for not appreciating your writing as much as
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
i should have i loved your i loved your writing but i didn't express it enough because it was
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Speaker 4 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
something that was i wasn't engaging with every day so it's something i took for granted and i'm
40:39
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
sorry i shouldn't have i want to say sorry to soya for having you waste so much time looking out for me
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Speaker 5 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
and helping me and it didn't matter in the end i'm so sorry and i'm sorry that i'm taking the easy
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Speaker 5 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
way out instead of listening to you and writing a proper response but there's no point like what's
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
gonna happen after this soya like we released a document then what what's there to go back to
41:32
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
i didn't have a i didn't have a this was my this was my plan hey what do i do what do i do wow wow
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Speaker 7 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
that's all the response how nice what's the point i'm sorry that i wasted your days trying to defend me
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Speaker 7 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
and look out for me and i'm sorry that i'm sorry for everything that i put you through
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Speaker 3 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
i can't imagine how stressful this is and i'm so sorry i want to say sorry to media it's a train
42:24
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Speaker 3 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
and queebs i'm so sorry that you wasted so much time building and modeling for this game i'm sorry
42:34
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Speaker 3 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
that it's all gonna amount to nothing i'm sorry that all your high quality work is gonna be stuck in this
42:44
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Speaker 3 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
piece of shit and i hope may hope that at least you'll be able to find work somewhere else because
42:52
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
you're all so talented and i want to say sorry to c4 and fiverr and mono you had just joined and i'm
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
sorry that it you didn't work for so long maybe that's a good thing but i'm still i apologize for
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Speaker 6 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
for having you waste time here that's having it strain your resume and time and you're all you're
43:52
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
all very talented i and i hope that you'll be able to find better work elsewhere and i want to say sorry
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
to will specifically because you did so much and you helped me with so much and i'm sorry that i didn't
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
take it for granted same with cat i'm sorry if this is jumping all over the place there's so many people
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Speaker 4 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
i want to apologize to but there's so many and i
45:01
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
I'm sorry to Artie, the voice actor, for wasting two years with us.
45:09
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
I'm sorry that we didn't manage to do much with your character.
45:18
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
I'm sorry that it had to end this way.
45:20
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
I want to say sorry to Fitzy, for the same reasons that we did not end up doing much with your character.
45:30
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
There was just so many things on the table.
45:34
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
We never got the time.
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
And I want to say sorry to Jade, and say to you, I'm sorry.
46:09
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
I want to say sorry to Zero, and I'm sorry that I made you waste your time making music after Ren had left.
46:19
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
I'm sorry that it had to be for this project and not anything else.
46:27
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
The same goes for Smiley.
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
I know that you're both so talented musicians, and I know that you'll be able to find employment elsewhere.
46:43
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
And I wish you the best.
46:49
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Speaker 2 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
And I want to say sorry to Connie.
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I'm sorry that you wasted so much of your artistic talent, and your sound design skills for so long.
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And I'm sorry that I took your designs for granted.
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I want to say sorry to all the new programmers.
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To Kobrik, to Rings, to Puffo, to Nick, to Waffles, and Ellie.
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I'm sorry for wasting your time, and I'm sorry that I ran out of budget to pay you.
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I was planning on paying you in the upcoming days, when we got the makeshift payment for the Sebastian plushie.
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But I don't think I'm going to be around for that.
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And I don't want to bother waiting, because it's just going to get worse.
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I'm sorry that I owe you so much, and that I won't be able to pay you.
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I really do want to pay you.
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But I don't want to wait and suffer more, because I know it's only going to get worse.
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More people are going to leave me, and I don't want to see that happen.
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I don't want to be around when that happens, because it's such a shot through the heart.
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And nobody wants to wait for me, to at least give a response.
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I defend myself.
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I feel so alone that nobody wants to even wait.
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Everyone's just depending on me.
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And I don't want to see that happen, continue to happen, because it's hurt so much.
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And I'm sorry that I won't be around to pay you, because you deserve your payments for all the hard work you do.
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And I don't want to be around too much longer.
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I don't want to wait to get it.
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I'm sorry for going over budget.
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I just wanted to make something good for the community.
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that they would enjoy.
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And I had a plan to pay you with the money it made.
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Thanks for my回 ad to do music.
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I don't know.
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and I don't want to wait another two weeks to get it, I don't want to suffer and misread
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for another two weeks, and I know that you need the money, I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry,
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there's so many people I need to pay, but I just don't have it right now, I was waiting
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to get it as part of this content run, but it's going to take so long to get here and
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it's just going to be suffering, and I don't want to suffer through that, and I know that
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it's so much I owe, and there is enough on the way, but I don't want to be there when
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it gets here, so much on my shoulders, I notice so many voices screaming at me because I couldn't
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respond fast enough, and everyone was leaving me, and there was nobody who wanted to wait
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until I could give an answer, like what's the point, giving an answer anyway, because when
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it's done, there's nobody left, nobody left, I was hoping that people would just let me,
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let me talk for, let me, let me come up with something in a few days, but if the serum has
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left and cat has left, and me and citrine has left, and so many of my friends have left,
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and I feel so alone, because I don't want to wait until I can at least explain myself, and
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I miss them so much, I wish they was able to talk to them, and just whilst I could, I just
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needed a few more days, I don't really want to apologize to work at the pizza place, innovation
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ink, pine wood, and regretovator for tarnishing your brands by having them as collapskins,
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and I'm sorry that I'm not going to be around to remove them, I'm sorry, I don't have it
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in me right now, I don't have it in me, I don't want to do anything right now, okay, I'm sorry
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that they're going to be there forever, astonishing your brand, I didn't mean, I didn't want to do
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that to you, and I'm so sorry, I remember playing work at a pizza place when I was 12, and it was
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such a dream come true, seeing it as a collab, in my own personal project, and I'm so sorry
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that I have to tarnish your legacy, I'm so sorry, I want to say sorry to Cyborg, for all the
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draw, the art you've drawn for us, and how it's going to mean nothing now, and I'm sorry
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that you've wasted so much of your artistic talent on this fucking garbage, and I'm so
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sorry for ever reaching out to you and wasting your time i'm so sorry to all the skin modelers
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and artists who've been making concepts and items and shit for this update i'm so sorry that your
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work has gone to waste i'm so sorry that i made you waste all the time and had to wait an entire
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year before we got around to it anyway i'm sorry i hope you can get better employment elsewhere
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i want to say sorry to shancy for all for the for us using your using your abomination plush design
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i'm so sorry that the thing is in this world now i'm sorry i want to say sorry to the sage
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and arrow and just and rem and mafi there's so many i don't know what to say i'm sorry that you
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Speaker 1 (I have killed myself [m-9gWNYZzjk])
wasted your artistic talent with me there's so much i have so much i want to just say sorry for but it's
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all the same i'm so sorry for wasting everyone's time i want to say sorry to makeshift for ever
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partnering with us and i'm sorry that we have tarnished your brand reputation i know that i
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have tarnished your brand reputation and i'm sorry to everyone who has bought merch and just anything
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in general i'm sorry that you wasted your money there's so many people i want to apologize to but i
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don't i forget there's so many they all deserve apologies but i can't do it because i don't remember
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there's i interact with so many people i'm sorry if i forgot you i want to say sorry to to michael
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for that april fools bit i'm sorry that i tarnished your reputation by including you on the brand
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i'm sorry i want to say sorry to alex for having you voiced the jackpot it was so dumb to cast you
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so early i was just so excited i'm sorry
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so early
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I'm so scared
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But I can't live without me
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It's just what I'm good at
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I'm not good at anything
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I've done it
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I've done the last 4 years
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And now I stopped
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And I'm so scared
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I didn't come to my best friend
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Because I was the best friend of my grave
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And I didn't say goodbye
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I was so scared
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I got a child
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because I was so scared
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My family
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I'm so scared
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I can't remember how he was talking about it!
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I can't remember him in a roll-stool!
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I love him so much!
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I love him so much!
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And I will say to Martin,
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that he didn't come to go up with his store-brother.
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And because of the slot,
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it was not much.
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I was so sick,
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and I was so sick.
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I was so sick.
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I was so sick.
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I was so sick.
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You didn't want to get me.
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You didn't want to get me.
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You were so good.
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You were so sick.
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You didn't want to get me.
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I was like to say to Mia.
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Because I gave you your time.
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And because you were so angry for me.
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I didn't want to get you.
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I didn't want to get you.
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You didn't want to get me to get me.
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You were so sick.
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You did not want to get me.
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Okay Mia?
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There was so much that went!
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There was so much.
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There was so much...
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Okay?
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There was so much!
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And I can't do it anymore
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And I've been able to do my best stuff today
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It's my career
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And I'm so happy
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And I'll see you in the next video
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And I'll see you in the next video
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I don't know what you're doing
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